Thank You

In the past
My life was never bright
Trap in my own world
Hiding my pain and stuff
Acting, playing and smiling
Was all in my mind
Telling me to shut myself up
And stop troubling other people
With my stuff
No light ever shown in my world
No hope
No love
Nothing just emptiness
But friendship came along
And soon you came along
The sun finally shone down
And the flower started to bloom
The sweet and gentleness
You’ve shown
Brighten my days
You carry me around the world
With your angel wings
All I want to say
Thank you for being there
Thank you for being in this world
Thank you for entering my life
Thank you for loving me
For you I’ll live to see the day
I’ll look forward for the sun rises
I’ll rise back up from my darkness
To love you
And be with you forever
Thank you.

Always Love You

I don’t know how to say
I don’t know how show it
But you really lightn up my day
The sweet and kindness you gave
Just swept my heart away
Sometimes I maybe wrong
But to you,
You understand me more
No longer trap in my darkness
No longer trap in my past
No longer shall I cry at night
Thank you for stepping into my life
Now I won’t be alone anymore
For you will always be there for me
Caring me
Loving me
I’ll treasure each moment
I’ll treasure each second
Thank you for coming into my life
Being a light in the dark
Thank oyu for loving me
For I will always love you
Till the day I die.

She Can't Hate Him

Another dark night has come
She stayed under her bed
Crying to herself
She hugs her mother picture
Tightly as possible
The clock strike midnight
And the hall clock rang
The door slam open
And he came in shouting
Drunk in his world
Grumbling and cursing
Again she was the victim to this crime
Bruises covered her body
She stood at his bed
As he lay on his bed soundly asleep
Looking down at him
With her devil eyes
The knight that she was gone
She held up the knife 
Ready to strike down 
Into his heart
Ready to his eyes in pain
Ready to hear his scream
Ready to see the blood flow from him
And laugh in please
But my hands shake
Not in fear…
But love…
She can’t bring herself to kill him
She can’t hate him
For he is her knight in the shining armor
For he is her beloved father…

Goodbye My Day Light

Midnight strike 
The time I asked for has gone
My heart pound as I hear the silent knock
On my window
Oh God, what have I done?
I have to face my darkest fear
For him I’ll become one
I mustn’t let people hear
I can’t scream
I can’t run
His eyes cast a spell on me
His eyes glows bright red
He smile with please
It’s been long 
Since he had this pleasure
He can’t accept
The facts that I’m dying
He can’t stand the pain
Of my burning body
He can’t stand my tears
As he sank his fangs in me
But I can’t stop it
To live on
Beside him
I got to not stop 
Sink your fangs further in
Suck my blood with pressure and please
My scream must be silent
My mind must be clear
I must be patient
So I could be with him under the moon light
Living my life with him for eternity
All I can say now
Goodbye my beautiful day light
This is the price I’ll pay…

Faster!!!!!!!

lalalla....someone got someone...another person got someone!!! now one more person must have someone!!!!!!

Let Me Take Away Your Tears!

Let me take away your tears
Let me be your angel
Let me take you up high into the sky
Let me sing your lullaby
Don’t say you are lonely
Don’t say that you are okay
Don’t keep it in your heart
I’m here for you
Forever I’ll be yours
When you cry
My heart hurt
Please don’t keep it in you
Tell me 
I’ll be your angel
I’ll be your guardian
So tell me
Tell me your pain
Tell me your sorrow
And never keep inside you
Just remember I’m here
Loving you
Trusting you
Forever believing in you

princess night

Well…there isn’t anything for me to say. Everything in my life seems to be going just nice, but now I’m worried is just it is going just too fine. Beside the fact that I still get scolding from my parents, but I still love them; no one can take them away from me no matter what. So I think I don’t really have anything to say. The fact that I’m in love with someone so special in my life, he took me out from my sleep. Woke me up with his gentleness, I miss him so much but I can’t meet him properly. 
I think my Thursday night was the most special night ever. It was prom, and everything was like a fairy tale for me. Finally in my 17 years of live, I’m a princess that night. Not only me, every single girls are princesses that night. Boys as charming as prince and so is mine. Nothing can compare to that night where every single fantasy came true. Although I was sick, got a slight fever but my prince makes everything alright for me, thanks to him, I’m much better now. Now I’m looking forward for Christmas Eve and Christmas day!! I won’t be getting any present; everything is already done because of prom. Well…I got a good fairy tale prom night. Only I feel  sorry because i got fever that night, ruin my night out and his… I bet he is going to scold me if he sees this. Well… I don’t think I got anything I could say. All I know is that, I’m the happiest girl in this world now with my prince charming!! So…the end!!!!!!! 

TAKE ME AWAY!!!

Maybe I ask for too much
Maybe I shouldn’t believe in anything
I don’t know where I am now
I don’t know which road to take
Where am I supposed to go?
Where am I supposed to be?
Is there anything that I could do?
Anything that will change the past
My past that I can’t run
A past that I can never forget
A past that will hunt me forever
Where could I run to?
Where can I hide the truth?
Take my somewhere I don’t know
Somewhere far away
Somewhere away from this pain
Bring me home to heaven
Bring me home to my place
Where are the angels to guide me?
Please take away my emotion
Take away my soul
Take away everything
I don’t want to be alive anymore
This pain is just driving me crazy
Take me away
Take me far away
I don’t want to be here
I hate to be here
Take me away
From this pain and sadness

please just stop

Take away my tears
Take away my smile
Take away my laughter
If that could make him smile
Don’t make him suffer
Don’t make him cry
Please don’t take him away from me
I’ll do anything to make him stay alive
No more scolding he shall take
No more suffering he shall hold
Make him cry and smile to us
Make him talk his soul
Make him open his heart
To my family and me
Please save him from this suffering
I’ll do anything you please
Take away my life 
If that is what it will course
Take away my smile and laughter
Take away my emotion
If that will make him better
Stop making him suffer
Stop making feel the pain
He never lies or cheats
Please just make him happy everyday
I’ll pay the price 
I’ll pay it all
Just please I beg you
To save him from this 
And not make him suffer anymore

Please listen to my plead

Today my life may end, knowing what I will cause if I’m not here. But do you every listen to me? Many people told me that you always listen and help those who are in need in your way. But today I see, you aren’t helping me at all. He is a good man, he help others and never really ask anything in return, he save his money to the point that he himself doesn’t have any. I’ve seen him suffer like that, I know I’m using his money in time which I like to spend…but I don’t spend that much do I? He never cheat and never lie without a good reason, not only you giving him this pain, you are also making things worse for him. The pain on his leg is making him suffer, the job that he has is making him work harder den any other people in his office. Tell me what am I suppose to do to make you listen? What am I suppose to scarify to make his life better? I know he is suffering, paying bills and someone college fees. I know he can’t really pay for mine because it will make him suffer even more! Tell me…aren’t you not helping him? I thought you always help the good? Where is that? Why that isn’t applied to him? Please make him happy; please make him enjoy his life more den cursing each day. Please make him smile truthfully, please I’m begging you. He is my father; I don’t want to see him suffer…please help to make his day be a brighter day. Help him fight against his sickness that weakens him almost every day. Please make him smile brighter, let him enjoy. I beg you to hear my plead, send your angels down to protect him, please I beg you for tomorrow, please don’t make him suffer anymore. 

for my best friends

To: my best friends!

An oath to swear
A sight to be remembered
No longer there was hope
For our final departure
Many years we’ve been together
Sitting and waiting in the hall
Welcoming the sun arise
To start our day in delight
No matter who comes between us
We stand strong and firm
But now I hold your hand
Holding back my tears
Smiling gently at you
Hoping to never leave
This perfect memory
I swear upon my name
That I’ll be there for you
No matter what future may bring
I promise
I’ll always be there for you

From, kitty cat

No matter how far she ran,
No matter how far she goes.
It seems that she can never run away from her world
A world full of darkness and fear,
A world with no light or hope to spear,
Sitting in that darkness praying for help
Maybe she’s just an unlucky child.
A dream to be a princess,
A dream to be free,
To be wild and happy,
But in her world it no longer exist.
Only chains and strings pull her down.
And angel who was once flies freely in the sky,
Giving love to mankind
But now the angel finally turns insane
Trap between the greed of mankind
Only the thirst of hatred she desire
Only the blood of mankind she love
Their screams make her laugh
Their tears make her smile
Their pain makes her glow
But every single blow she hit
Every single soul she took
Her tears flow down into earth
Knowing her insanity will never stop
For she was an angel
Who turn into a devil.

No longer will the light shine
No longer shall the day be bright
No longer shall a true smile be shown
No longer shall the angel sings
A life full of hate
Thoughts full of revenge
As the day passes by
The stronger he gets
The hate for human being
The thirst for blood
He howls into the night
Seeking for his next victim to be killed
A normal instinct of life
To kill or to hunt

No longer i could smile
No longer i could laugh
No longer i could cry
I wonder at night
I rule the streets
With my followers
I haunt those innocent
Who happpen to be in the wrong place
At the wrong time
Their plead
Their tears
No longer had effect on me
Their cries
No longer have a place in my heart
Their innocent soul slowly fades
As their blood flow
No longer i could feel pity
No longer i could cry
No longer i have emotions
For my humanity had been long gone

should i fall again??

Never thought that such thing could happen in my daily life. Every time I think about my life is going to end. Thinking that I’m loosing myself day by day. Thinking that I no longer belong in this world anymore. Thinking that my friends are slowly leaving me behind because my freedom is no longer my. But today is really different. A young boy with the beautiful look step into my life one more time. I told myself that I never want to believe him but his look and his words took my breath away and leaving me in a thick cloud full of dreams. He step into the house holding his bag asking permission to stay one night. My eyes didn’t want to meet his but he exchanges look. His eyes light shining eyes look into my. How can I resist? His dances, his moves attract me around the house. I should just stay in my room and avoid him but his voice in the hall just take my hart beat away. His handsome eyes and kind character took my balanced off. He lied to me once but now he is the more than perfect guy that anyone want to have. Those dark tan skin, should I fall again?

I'm sorry...

Another day, another day life. Another life is taken away and another life is born. Why is this world so boring? If not something is destroyed, then somewhere is in danger. Every different thing happen in daily life but there is nothing that is so interesting. I want to be a pilot, I want to be an artist, I want to be a singer and more. All those just normal people dreams. But what is my dream? I know I said b4 that I want to be the world famous pianist, but is that really my dream or is it just a dream that was plant in my head since young. I don’t know anymore, I just don’t feel like bother anyone about me. Everyone seem to have their own problem. Haiz…I just don’t know anymore. Just give up? Just go with the flow? But where is the freedom in anything? Where am I sippose to smile and laugh if it is not what I like? I don’t really think I doing the right thing anymore. The more I grow up, pieaces of me starts to fade…the longer I live, the more I’m acting not like me anymore. Until the day I loose myself, all I can say I’m sorry for all the thing I do….

Should I act forever?

Nothing really change in my life. I’m still the old me, who goes around smilling. The pain I’m having inside could never stop bleeding. I smile in pain but no one notice. I talk happily, avoiding people noticing me. But am I doing the right thing? Am I suppose to hide away my pain? I smile to shake away my pain. I laugh and have fun to chase those pain away. But everytime the night come, alone in my dark room. Those pain just burst out from me. I curled like a ball and cover myself up. Crying and sobbing my tears away. I hate the sun rise because I know have to be happy again. Those anyone in this world know the real me. I help people, I’m just like any other kids but I just cant help it. Maybe the pressure had push me to the end. Maybe I’m just different, I don’t really know anymore. Am I going to just smile forever? Am I going to act forever? Or should I really show the real me? Ah!! I don even know who is the really me!!!!

Black Prince

you were called the white prince
and the famous quaterback in school
your dashing eyes staed into mine
those beautiful eyes
shakespears was right
love doesn't need a reason
i was not popular
and was always bullied
then one day you called
to the prom just me and you
i dressed up beautifully
waiting for your arrival
you held a rose and kiss my hand
i know i'm in heaven
you took me into the hall
my heart pound even faster
as you smile
but cold dashing water fell from above
the smell of rotten eggs
laughther filled the room
your evil grin woke me up
a slap on the face and the fantasy is gone
no longer a white prince
but a black prinve instead
i'll never forget that
cold heart of yours
that i'll crush one day...

i'm me!!!

There isn’t anything I could do… but my whole world came to and end in one second. Everything look perfectly fine in people’s eyes. But what to you really think? Parents should know everything about their child. But in my life…I don’t know anyone who could understand my feeling. Everything they see is the happy me. They will never understand my feeling. Could there be anyone in this world who can see through me? I try to make them to see who I really am but even my parents couldn’t understand! All they do is blame me. All they think is about themselves. What is it the real me? When can I be me? Do I have to act forever? A life to furfil other people dreams. Do I have to cry to let you see I’m sad? Do I have to be angry to let you see I’m in no mood? Why can’t anyone see me for who I am? Is it really hard to understand me? Am I not good enough to be seen? Stop making me like someone else! Stop comparing me with someone else! Stop calling my name but see me as someone else! I’m not him! I not like him! I’m not smart, I’m not strong, I’m not that happy like him! Please see me for who I am! Please see me as me and not the person you wish to be in me...